歌词
Looking back now I didn't know what it was supposed to be
现在回想起来，连我都不知道应该会发生什么
And it's like raising kids man
这就像抚养孩子一样
If you weren't raised you don't know how to raise you know
如果你自己没有成长，你就谈不上如何去抚养这个孩子
I just did the best that I could with them
我只是尽我所能
Because they know f**kin' well I love them
因为他们很清楚我爱他们
But I didn't do the best I could
但我没有尽力
I didn't know what the f**k I was doing
因为我不知道过去的自己到底做了些什么事
I didn't
我毫无印象
I will never forget watching my mother get put in a straightjacket
我永远不会忘记我妈妈被全身五花大绑带出房门的情景
And taken out of my home when I was only seven years old
在我七岁的时候就被从家里带走
She was diagnosed with Dementia praecox and put in a mental institution
她被诊断出患有早发性痴呆，并被送进精神病院
Leaving my daddy alone with me and my little brother Lloyd
留下了我爸爸，我，还有我弟弟Lloyd
I later had an evil stepmother
后来我有了一个恶魔般恐怖的继母
Who further cemented the idea that I didn't need a mother
她的所作所为进一步巩固了我不需要母亲的想法
Growing up without one had long lasting influence
在没有爱的情况下长大对我产生了持久的影响
I didn't fully understand until much later in life
直到很久以后，我才完全明白
It bled into my relationships with family
这影响了我和家人的关系
And those I had became romantically involved with
受影响的还有那些和我有过恋爱关系的人
Whenever I got too close to a woman I would cut her off
每当我和一个女人太亲近时，我就会和她断绝关系
Part of that was vindictive and partially based on fear
一部分是出于报复，一部分是出于恐惧
But it was also totally subconsious
但这也是完全潜意识的
Looking back is a b***h isn't it
回首过去，曾经的那个我真是一个彻头彻尾的混球，不是吗
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