Trauma

Growing up I never had a lot of money

I never had a phone

Always was a little hungry

Used to find it hard to sleep

When I could hear my mother sobbing

I was 10 back then

I didn't have a room

Had to buy used shoes

I hid behind tunes

To avoid abuse

And every time I fell

I would blame it on myself

Even if it was an accident

Maybe it's not what I want

Oh I've seen better days

And the moment ****ing sucks

But I'll be damned if I don't stop

And, honestly, why not

When nobody gives a ****

But sometimes I just can't help myself

I wanna give up trying

And start doing something else

Sometimes I just get overwhelmed

I know it's in my mind

But I think I need some help

Cuz sometimes I just can't help myself

I was an outcast

Thrown out to dry and get laughed at

Too shy to talk about home

I always thought life was supposed to be cold

And oh I've been so

Lost without hope

I got a window in my head, it's a casket

You know I been wishing I was dead, but I mask it

Maybe it's not what I want

Oh I've seen better days

And the moment ****ing sucks

But I'll be damned if I don't stop

And, honestly, why not

When nobody gives a ****

But sometimes I just can't help myself

I wanna give up trying

And start doing something else

Sometimes I just get overwhelmed

I know it's in my mind

But I think I need some help

Because it's all I know

My hands around my throat

Pray that I won't let go

This time around

But every single time

I try to shut my eyes

I see the reason why

I'm not alone

Sometimes I just can't but sometimes I just can't help myself

I wanna give up trying

And start doing something else

Sometimes I just get overwhelmed

I know it's in my mind

But I think I need some help

Sometimes I just can't help myself