歌词
I've had back pain for most of my life
活了大半辈子 我的背一直隐隐作痛
And the most I ever did was see the doc
做的最多的还是去看医生
And the doc told me that my back was alright
医生说我的背没问题
He had initials in his shirt
他身穿印有字母缩写的衬衫
He had a nice expensive watch
腕上戴着昂贵的表
I thought he knew what he was doing
看起来医术高明
Or at least what was right
至少会做正确的事
He made me fill a piece of paper out
他让我填了一张表格
With different questions all about
上面有着不同的问题
My health, wellbeing and the state of my life
关于健康 以及生活状态
I told the truth, I'm only lying to myself if I should lie
说实话 如果要撒谎 那也只是在自欺欺人
So…
于是
I answered everything
我尽力答完一切
And did my best to keep it real in between the lines
尽量在字里行间保持真实
I gave it back to him, he took his time
还给他表格后 他花了不少时间
And read the paper over once or twice
反复检查
He looked at me as if to say
然后 他用一种欲言又止的眼神看着我
"I need to tell you something
“我要告诉你一些事
And don't prepare for me to tell you something nice"
要告诉你一些并不美好的事情”
He wanted to know just how much I tend to drink and smoke
他想知道我的烟瘾和酒量
I told him how it was, and then he gave me this advice
我如实回答 接着 他给出建议
He said, "Ease up on stress
他说：“放松点 别给自己太大压力
You don't help yourself much
你承受不了的
It's too intense for you to take, you'll only tense up
只会越绷越紧
And you see you have these issues, and you struggle to relax
你看 你一直都有这些问题 难以放松
So you come see me, the doctor, to get something for your back
所以来看医生 想解决背痛
But this piece of paper tells me that there's more that you should address
但这张表格告诉我，你应该解决的还有更多。”
I see some anger in you, plus addiction, plus the rest
“我看到你内心的愤怒 还有成瘾…”
Now I feel like we should speak about this, for it comes first
“我觉得我们应该先谈谈这些 别让它们成为首要问题
And I know a lot of people who can help, for what it's worth.."
我知道很多能帮你的人 真的”
I said
我说：
"I don't know if you understand, man
“你好像没听懂
My back just ****ing hurts
我的背疼得要命
Do I need physiotherapy? Or is it something worse?"
我到底需不需要物理治疗 还是说更严重？”
He paused and then he asked me what I thought we should do
他停顿了一下 然后问道：“嗯 你觉得我们该怎么做？”
I said
我说：
"If I knew that, I wouldn't be here, man, I'm asking you!"
“如果我知道该怎么做 我就不必来问您了 对吧？”
He handed me to someone who gave me a blood test
他把我交给了抽血的人
Who handed me to someone else who took my payment
又把我交给了收款的人
And took all of my ****ing patience
他们耗尽了我的耐心
I should add, at this point the doctor had already left
到这个时候 医生已经离开了
And I resented that man
我对他心生怨恨
I never went back to him again
再也没回去过
But you know in a weird way, I feel like maybe he was right
然而 说来奇怪 我隐隐觉得他可能说得对
I may be using my back pain to distract from the pain of life
或许 我一直用背痛来转移生活的痛苦
Feel it all externally, when really it's just inside
将真正的伤痛感受外化 而忽视了内心的煎熬
Procrastinating confrontation
一次又一次地拖延
Every single time
逃避着所有对抗
So...
所以
Thank you, Mister doctor man
还是要谢谢那位医生
I'm now being sincere
真挚感谢
I guess I just didn't wanna hear what I didn't wanna hear, OK!
只是… 只是当时的我 不想听到那些我不想听的罢了
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