歌词
(I don't know how much more of this I can take
我不知道自己还能承受多少
My thoughts controlling me
我的想法控制着我
My fears controlling me
我的恐惧左右着我
I'm anxious)
我很焦虑
我一直在忍受焦虑
I've been feeling anxious
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由
Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我一直在忍受焦虑
I've been feeling anxious
当我环顾四周，我发现并非没有人有如我一般的感受
And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
我一直在经受焦虑
I've been feeling anxious
希望我渡过难关克服痛苦，上帝啊，请听听我的祈求吧
Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging, God, please
我一直在经受焦虑
I've been feeling anxious
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由
Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我在恐慌中惊醒，恐惧彻底地撕扯着我的胸口
我无法忍受直到熬过这些充斥着压力的夜夜夜夜
I'm waking up in a panic ripping my chest tight
但我是个战士，所以，我要全力以赴应对挑战
Can't wait till I can see the end of all these stress nights
并且我向上帝祈祷我的下一段旅程将不再受苦
But I'm a soldier, so, I'mma put my best fight
每当我置身于人群之中，我就开始恐慌
And pray to God that I won't have to suffer in my next life
我总行走在焦虑边缘就像有什么事情将会发生
Whenever I'm out in public I start to panic
最坏的可能情况都只存于我脑海的想象之中
I'm always on the edge like something is gonna happen
与外界最轻微的互动都能触发这些烂想法
The worst case possible is what my mind imagines
这种感觉就像它让你总是聚焦于你最大的恐惧
And this shit could get triggered by the slightest interaction
并且它还在不断提醒你你永远都无法让它们消失
It's like it always makes you focus on your biggest fears
当你的思想无比清晰时
And it reminds you that you'll never make them disappear
这些烂想法也会来掺一脚，就像你永远无法被其他因素驱动或者换个角度看生活
And when your mind is crystal clear
我已经如失控的子弹，我的内心支离破碎，没有人能修复我的内心
This shit will interfere like don't you ever try to be driven or even switching gears
我不需要医师来给我开偏方
I'm going ballistic, I'm broken, no one can fix it
他开的那些药片只会让我服从
And I don't want Physicians just tryna feed me prescriptions
导致的化学失衡正在控制我的整个存在
The pills I've been given gon beat me into submission
我一直都在忍受焦虑
Cause the chemical imbalance controlling my whole existence
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由
我一直都在忍受焦虑
I've been feeling anxious
当我环顾四周我发现也不是没有人如我一般痛苦
Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我一直在忍受焦虑
I've been feeling anxious
希望我渡过难关克服痛苦，上帝啊，请听听我的祈求吧
And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
我一直在忍受焦虑
I've been feeling anxious
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由
Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging, God, please
有时我会在谈话中途离开房间
I've been feeling anxious
这一切只是因为我极度焦虑，我感到自己的心跳在加速
Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
这种感觉就像，我失去了对周围一切的控制
我想是时候请医生给我一些强效药了
Sometimes I leave a room in the middle of conversation
但现在，我被镇定剂镇住了，就像行尸走肉一样四处游荡
All because I'm anxious and feels like my heart's racing
我觉得自己灵魂出窍已经沦为副本
It feels like, I've lost all controls of this situation
我不想让这些垃圾在我内心存在，它们都是我身体里的毒药
Guess it's time to hit the doctor for some stronger medication
所有的时光开始融合，我的记忆变得参差不齐
But now, I'm just sedated, I'm walking around like a zombie
所以，我只希望有一天我能生活于平静之中
A mother****ing shell of myself for carbon copy
我生来就是一个梦想家，但我发誓这条路苦乐参半
Don't want this shit inside me there's poison all in my body
我很擅长说唱，但是否该去选择一个不同的梦想呢
All my days begin to blend and my memories getting spotty
不能站在舞台上，我发誓，光是这个想法就会让我崩溃
So, I'm just hoping that one day I'll live in peace
我不是在寻找同情或爱
Was born a dreamer but I swear this shit is bittersweet
我讨厌焦虑，我痛恨它让我觉得自己快要放弃
I'm nice at rapping but it's time to pick a different dream
当唯一的治疗方法是自我隔离和服药
Can't get up on the stage, I swear that thought alone just cripples me
如果你知道那是什么感觉，我打赌你不会妄加评判的
And I'm not looking for sympathy or no love
我一直都感到焦虑
I just hate that I'm anxious and feel like I'm giving up
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由
When the only cure is self isolation and taking drugs
我一直都在忍受焦虑
If you knew what it was like I bet you prolly wouldn't judge
当我环顾四周我发现也不是没有人如我一般痛苦
我一直都在忍受焦虑
I've been feeling anxious
希望我渡过难关克服痛苦，上帝啊，请听听我的祈求吧
Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我一直都在忍受焦虑
I've been feeling anxious
我感觉自己就像那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由
And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
I've been feeling anxious
Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging, God, please
I've been feeling anxious
Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
专辑信息
1.Anxious