disappear

Disappear from everyone

I hold so close to me

Fade away into the night

And hope it takes away the pain

If i fall asleep forever

For better or for worse

At least i won't be awake

To feel the guilt and regret

I always knew

I can't even cry if i wanted to

And i'm sorry that i lie when i talk to you

I don't remember the last time i smiled

And meant it

I can't remember the last time I felt something real