歌词
I swear to God they'll probably never understand me
上帝作证，他们可能永远不会理解我
Sick of just walking around, pretending I'm happy
厌倦了四处游荡，假装开心
Feel like collapsing from all weight that I carry
我感觉自己都要被压垮了
But I just keep it pushing and pop me another Xanny
但我一直在推动它，给我再来一个Xanny（Xanax阿普唑仑，治疗焦虑、抑郁药物）
Know it's sad but I remember as a kid it was rough
我知道这很糟糕，但我记得当我还是个孩子的时候，生活很艰难
Always thought we had it all, what I was missing was love
一直以为我们拥有一切，我却错过了爱
And always drowning in some waters that were thicker than blood
一直溺死在比血还浓稠的水里
Still they wonder how the **** I got addicted to drugs, damn
该死，他们还在想我是怎么上瘾的
But they don't get that I'm avoiding feeling pain
但他们不明白我只是在逃避痛苦
Only time I feel alive is when there's poison in my veins
只有当我的血管里有药物的时候我才觉得活着
Momma telling me to look at what I'm doing to myself
妈妈让我看看我把自己变成了什么样
But I just wanna be ****ing happy like everybody else
但我他妈只想和其他人一样开心
They looking down on me like I'm the ****ing villain
他们瞧不起我，好像我是个该死的恶棍
I don't wanna talk about it, I know they don't wanna listen
我不想谈这个，我知道他们也不想听
I was only tryna make up for the feeling I was missing
我只是试着弥补我失去的感觉
If I'm only feeling pain, tell me, what's the point of living
如果我只感到痛苦，告诉我，活着的意义是什么
Every day I'm waking up and tryna deal with the stress
每天醒来，我都在努力应对压力
And I've been acting like I'm happy when my life is a mess
虽然我的生活一团糟，我仍然表现得很开心
And all I know is that I got this ****ing pain in my chest
我只知道我的胸口很疼
And I would love to get clean but I'm too ****ing depressed, damn
该死，我很想戒瘾但我太他妈抑郁了
Momma's panicking and losing her faith
妈妈惊慌失措，失去了信念
Came to tell me 'bout a rehab in a beautiful place
她告诉我在一个美丽的地方有个康复中心
She said, "Just checking up if you was awake"
她说"只是想看看你是否清醒"
She broke down when she seen her son blue in the face and thought
当她看到儿子脸色发青，陷入沉思时，她崩溃了
No one ever told me it would be this hard
没人告诉过我会这么容易上瘾
Never really thought that it would take my life, no
从未想过它会夺走我的人生，从未
I just want the pain to ****ing go away, eh, eh, eh-eh
我只是想让痛苦消失啊
Once upon a time we were the happiest couple
我们曾经是最幸福的一对
Knew we always had each other, never had any trouble
我们一直拥有彼此，从未有过任何矛盾
Always had each other's backs if we happened to struggle
如果我们遇到困难，总是会互相支持
I left some people in the past and they were mad that I loved you
我离开了从前的一些人，他们因为我沉迷于你而生气
Said it's only puppy love, I knew that wasn't the case
他们说那只是稚爱（少男少女间短暂的爱情），我知道不是这样的
I remember getting nervous when I brought you on dates
我记得带你去约会时我很紧张
Conversations 'bout the future and copping our own place
关于未来的对话，还有我们自己的房子
Talking 'bout the day you'd be sharing my last name
说着有一天会以你之名冠我之姓
I think I'd loved since the time that we met
我想我从我们相遇时就爱上了你
You had my heart and to be honest you was taking my breath
你拥有我的心，并且说实话，你让我喘不过气来
All my homies said that I became a little obsessed
我所有的兄弟都说我有点痴迷了
Never thought that you would get up and leave me ****ing depressed, damn
该死，从没想过你会让我这么沮丧
How could you leave me girl, I thought you were the one
你怎么能离开我，女孩，我视你为唯一
Treated you like a queen, never lied to you once
待你如女王，从没骗过你
Now I feel like I'm drowning and there's water filling me lungs
水灌满了我的肺，现在我感觉自己快溺死了
I don't wanna be alone, I'm afraid of who I've become
我不想一个人，我害怕自己变成这样
You're gone and I ****ing hate it, I feel like I'm suffocating
你走了，我讨厌这样，我觉得自己快要窒息了
You ripped my ****ing heart out and never tried to replace it
你他妈把我的心都挖出来了却从来没想过替代它
Now when I think about you all I feel is disgust
现在我一想到你就觉得恶心
You were all I ever wanted, thanks for ****ing it up
你就是我所想要的全部，真他妈谢谢你搞砸了
Everybody that's around me know that something is wrong
我周围的人都知道有点不对劲
They always try to tell me love is the strongest drug of 'em all
他们总是试图告诉我，爱是最强大的药物
You know what, huh, I'ma go and see for myself
你知道吗，我要自己去看看
Let me pop a couple Xannys, I'ma see if it helps
让我来点Xanny，看看有没有用
Oh my God, I think I finally feel alive again
天啊，我觉得我终于又活过来了
Oh my God, I think I'm finally 'bout to smile again
天啊，我想我终于又要笑了
And I just started sleeping better at night
我开始在晚上睡得好了
I think I finally found the feeling of what heaven is like
我想我终于找到了天堂的感觉
They're getting rid of all my stress when I'm torn
当我心情不好的时候，它们帮我排忧解难
And I could tell that they're relieving all my pressure for sure
我敢肯定它们在缓解我的压力
Soon my dealer told me that he couldn't get me anymore
不久，我的交易商告诉我，他再也无法帮我买到了
Now I'm feeling way sicker than I ever did before
现在我觉得比以前更难受了
Shit, I can't even take a brief intermission
该死，我连短暂的休息都做不到
Without me throwing up and feeling like a piece of me's missing
不能呕吐，感觉我的身体少了一部分
There was a time I needed love, now I need a perscription
曾经我需要爱，现在我需要一个药方
I'm done with living like this, I'd rather lethal injection
我受够了这样的生活，我宁愿注射死刑
'Cause all I think about is pills when I open my eyes
因为当我睁开眼睛，我满脑子想的都是药片
And every day I'm waking up and feeling broken inside
每天我醒来，内心都感到支离破碎
When all I really wanted was to feel happy for once
我真正想要的只是开心一次
But now I'm losing myself and losing my family's trust, damn
但现在我失去了自我失去了家人的信任，该死
I really think these drugs have taken my soul
我真的觉得这些药夺走了我的灵魂
Probably pop 'em till they put me in the grave and I'm cold
也许它们会把我送进冰冷的坟墓
But I can't point any fingers, I know the blame is my own
但我不能指责任何人，我知道这是我自己的错
I got addicted to a ***** and that's the fate that I chose
我迷上了一个婊子，这就是我选择的命运
No one ever told me it would be this hard
没人告诉过我会这么容易上瘾
Never really thought that it would take my life, no
从未想过它会夺走我的人生，从未
I just want the pain to ****ing go away, eh, eh, eh-eh
我只是想让痛苦消失啊
No one ever told me it would be this hard
没人告诉过我会这么容易上瘾
Never really thought that it would take my life, no
从未想过它会夺走我的人生，从未
I just want the pain to ****ing go away, eh, eh, eh-eh
我只是想让痛苦消失啊
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